가는 말이 고와야 오는 말이 곱다

I am Korean born.

한국어 탄생. 

입양인.

亚洲女孩

I am an Asian girl woman.
I don't know Chinese or Japanese just because I'm Asian.
나는 중국어 또는 일본어 모른다.

Asian languages are not similar.
Knowing one language does not make fluent in all.

Yes, rice is a staple food in most Asian cultures but it's not the only food.
Asians, does not love rice just because they are Asian or supposed to be in their DNA.

나는 한국어 입니다.  
나는 밥을 좋아하지.나는 밥을나는 밥을 좋아하지 않는다좋아하지 않는다. 

虎穴に入らずんば虎子を得ず

I want to live my life without fears.
Mistakes makes you grow.

好久沒看到

China, Mongolia, Tawain.
(South) Korea, North Korea.
Japan.

Funiculi Funicula

Life is fast you can't stop it not even if you tried. Enjoy the little time that you may have. Forget all your sorrows, fears and mistakes. Live for the moment not for tomorrow or in the past.

Como tu Mujer

As a woman in the 21st century I should not have to forsake my dreams or anything that makes me me. I should be allowed to strive, flourish and blossom.

 Just as I should be able to search for requited love to replace my eternal unrequited love.

As a woman I should be able to love anyone I want, of course I still have my moral principles thank you very much.  I may be a woman but a proud and indepent one at that I know I don't need a man or boyfriend to make my life complete.

But it would be nice for me to love another man, to mend my broken heart and to love another man as the woman that I am. My life might never feel complete but I think it should be nothing wrong with wanting to have someone to share your life with. There can be nothing wrong with wanting to establish a shared future with someone else.

Kiene Langewiele

As an adult adoptee there are many things I refuse to make a family tradition. Obviously adoption would be one of them. If I ever start a family with someone I rather do it with another Asian. I'm patriotic that way, preferably Korean although a Chinese or Japanese would be allright too. I dream of having a child that has my genes and whose etnicity would be Korean, or maybe Asian as in Chinese or Japanese...


I think of myself as a rebel, and I refuse to share my life with anyone who doesn't understand what it means to be a female Asian adoptee and a KAD. I consider myself fairly flexible yet that is my most important value that I will not accept any compromises on.

Non, Je ne Regrette Rien

Apparently there is a common understanding that if a young child experiences trauma it will most likely affect them. Some say the only remedy is regressional therapy that would help you re-experience said trauma and by doing so you can resolve it...
Not sure if it's true or not all I know is that I can't seem to shake off my past...

I don't want to live a life with regret. I don't want to have a past filled with regrets.
Yet it is better to regret past actions than never having tried.

Always on My Mind

If I don't get after my dream then I will always be on my mind.
Of course I could always settle and try to contempt-but I would never be it.
Most likely I would turn into an angry bitter woman and that should say a lot.
I am not willing to sacrifice my dream for anyone not even if I gain unconditional love in return.
Not until I tried my best would be inclined to consider recreating a new life under new circumstances.

I just think a lot about my birth mother and my olders sisters. Now I know that it is my mother that somehow is accountable for their nonexistant contact with me. My maternal grandmother refused me the oppertunity be raised with my older siblings. I have been rejected by three generations of women in my birthfamily and also two generations of men.

Off The Wall

Rumors. Facts. Truth. 

I want to resettle in Korea.

Why? How come ? Similar questions is what I recieve from anyone a stranger or someone who thinks they have a right to have an opinion my life and my choices. 

That could not be more wrong. I know what I am and the little culture I have been exposed to is not enough. Not a society that only halfheartedly is willing to accept you under certain curcumstances.

Society wants me to reject my origin, my proud heritage and my culture. 

I have been given a new one I should fully embrace it. Believe me I have and still I am not fully accepted. I was forced to learn the customs of a foreign culture and now I have to choose. Either fully adjust into it or make a concious choice not to.

For my entire life I have lived a life that people think they have a right to have opinions on and to offer advice usually of discouragement. I will never be fully accepted in a society that is supposed to be my home this exactly why it does not feel like my home.

The parents who raised me, that I call mum and dad will never replace the parents that I should have had. Instead they are the next best thing, but I love my mum and dad tremendously - but there will always be a part of me that I lost and always will miss...